Thursday

Firstly, I’d like to thank the folks that were kind enough to fill out that poll! I had two votes for cadmium green, one for rose pink, and one for chocolate brown. I don’t have to choose for myself after all! I’ve decided I’ll work through the ones voted for the most/chronologically and address other colors as well. As soon as I work through those first three colors I’ll create another poll with a new set and include any that weren’t chosen previously. Thank you 🙏🏽

“We live in a dirty butthole society” - Katharine K on the TP crisis

I did a ten minute ab workout before dinner and stretched for 15 minutes afterwards. My body seems to be nothing but a disgusting mess of knots. I never regret working out so why is it so hard to motivate myself to do it? The eternal question. Anyway, here’s dinner:

My appetite has returned, though I didn’t eat much of this thanks to a rogue bowl of cereal I had right beforehand. I should have used the coconut cream and not the lite, but they didn’t have a normal can at Sprouts when I last shopped. Bummer.

Since I’ve been focused on the irritation and agitation and PAIN, here’s a poem. The first I’ve written in a long time. I’d call the flavor and depth angsty teenage Nef but with the world weariness of an adult minus any eloquence:

I can’t stand forever

I can’t put it in

I felt the heat rising and it boiled the humor out of me

It precipitated to the roof of my skull

Then fell back down to the pit of my stomach

Vapors filling my chest

It wants to implode

But my head is still here

The dome vibrating and humming

I retreat to the bed

Unable to quiet the pounding

Bleeding makes it louder

My thighs stick together and my spine twists too far

I try to push the pressure out

But it pushes back

I’m the only one here

My body protests and insists the other one is there

I understand, this is how it is

I shut my eyes down and the nerves open up

I can’t stand at all

I can’t get it out 

And on that note… Ginrou Kaiki is the kind of campy, awesome fun I hoped it would be. To my ignorant western perspective it’s essentially got the vibe of an anime turned live action show. It’s OTT and goofy. Plus it’s got a dope opening theme:

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