There’s a cacophony of small things to sort through. I realized how much more space is truly in here with a small fraction of the floor cleared. I managed to throw away some trash that had been sitting in here for who knows how long. What did I think I was going to do with a bag from Hot Topic that’s literally almost a decade old? Why am I like this. That’s usually the conclusive question I circle back to. The actions of my previous self make this current version of me tired and perplexed.
Most of this room would be empty if I applied the Marie Kondo method of considering what brings me joy in here. It’s a mixture of things I need, like my electronics, art supplies, and books, and then….. miscellany that’s harder to discard. Old clothes, jewelry, knick knacks, remnants of gifts from exes. In regards to practicality they’re the least useful and significant items. In reference to joy, if there is any to be had it’s compromised. But they take up a good chunk of space in this room and I can’t bring myself to pull the trigger and discard or re-home them. I’m not used to throwing things away. My dad wants to get a storage container for a good chunk of our belongings but most of these things I personally have should be trashed if I’m not keeping them. I’m still fantasizing about being able to exist out of a backpack if I really needed to. I also keep drooling over minimalist living spaces. I think about times I stayed in hotels and how much I enjoyed that because only the necessary items were present (while still being cozy).
Ugh
In other news… my goal sometime this Saturday is to make French toast. But, like, fancy. I made a chickpea salad sandwich earlier today, which was delicious, then my mother made salmon fried rice and it was fantastic. Then we had fried chicken sandwiches later which was just *chef’s kiss*. Food! I love it!
Ah, and I’ve come up with an outlandish fantasy birthday item list:
Safety Kleen Sink
Lemon Ginger Mate in bulk
Oil painting paper
Linen
New Japanese aluminum pot
Casein paint
Everbearing strawberry runners
A clue