I’ve had a couple of days to be a completely useless slug of a human being. While that will continue to be the case in some capacity I’ve started thinking about what will happen in this post graduate life. That’s already been on my mind, but now it’s real. And, although it was already vague, now I’m even more uncertain in the wake of this pandemic. But, since I usually tell all on this intimate, wordy section of my site, I’ll expand on that.
My vision of what would come after school was nebulous at best. I have pretty full fledged fantasty of what I want but that’s very different from what I can realistically accomplish, even in a few years. I knew I’d return home to New Jersey at the very least. And while that used to be a strong desire in the beginning, after moving to this new apartment in Culver City my mind started to change and the thought of having to leave was incredibly saddening. However, now that exploring the city is no longer an option I’m finding that leaving stings ever so slightly less than it used to. Still pretty upset I can’t properly say goodbye to all the friends I made over here, but we have technology to keep us together. It’s gonna be okay. (Also, tangent: I’ve seen a curious number of people I know somehow enter relationships in the past three weeks. Is it because talking through a screen is the only option so more people are taking the romantic dive? Either way, good for y’all!)
This was the original plan:
Return home to New Jersey
Keep making artwork
Hopefully somehow sell that artwork to whomever wants it
Find work that would allow me to keep making art while paying off my debt
Something part time and unobtrusive? I realize that’s a pipe dream, especially for a person who’s never worked before
And go from there? I’d say the cliched answer of “Profit” but there will be no profiting for a long time
Updated plan:
Return home to New Jersey
Keep making artwork
Behave as though I’m still in school and find something new to learn and commit to it fully
…..uh
Check back in maybe a year from now and hopefully the situation and the plan will be different.
Also, I found out they attempted to deliver my graduation gown today and since they couldn’t reach me (???) they’ve instead dropped it off at a pick up location. Oops. I’m not exactly keen on going anywhere that isn’t essential so I guess I’m not going to have graduation pictures. 🤷🏽♀️My bad.
Other things I’m going to look into and attempt:
A dedicated curly hair routine since my hair feels and looks horrible
Freezing a lemon whole and grating it into my food (so far so good)
Perhaps watching at least one movie a week so I can up my culture points
Start that new learning thing sooner than later
I can practice something I didn’t have time for during the semester
I also mixed the original bag of mate I bought with the new one. That seemed to balance things out a little since the new bag seems a bit potent. Plus, my bombilla clogs up easily with its finer consistency. I’m going to avoid the valerian root tea since it really didn’t help at all last night.
I finally changed the sheets on my bed, by the way. I decided to switch where I put my head down too. It felt pretty spicy last night facing the other end of the bed. You see what excites me these days.